Dream Come True (after all)

So.. I know I'm most probably gonna burn in hell for it, but I caved.

After much consideration.. Much much consideration and a bout of depression.. I still didn't have an answer to my dilemma. Even the consideration of going to in Australia (just to avoid this sin of going during the Fast) came into play. This option would have cost me around R10 000 just for air fare and one-day festival ticket (didn't even get as far as adding accommodation costs). So now I had this option too(?) So much noise in my head. I'm surprised I didn't lose my mind!

It was only when tickets went on sale and I saw how cheap they were that I was pulling my hair out even more. R250 for tickets for THE USED..?? Added heavily to the temptation (I've paid way more for artists I've wanted to see way less!). I would have paid double! Heck, triple that price for The Used if I had to! But R250?? Unreal! How could I still consider the festival option when it would have cost me a sh!t load, in comparison?

So I bought a ticket, it seemed a lot less crazy. It still felt massively wrong.. But I bought my ticket.. I could always change my mind later if I felt too bad, right?
 
So I was now an owner of a "maybe" ticket, decided it had to be a single ticket 'cause I would have to do this alone if attending ended up materialising (I wasn't prepared to ask anyone else to sin with me in this holy month and have their sin weighing on me as well, I'd die).. But then I got a message, the day after said purchase, from a friend who admitted she had too had caved (She shall remain nameless as I am sure she is not keen to advertise her sin, I on the other hand.. (I know I am gonna burn, but) I need an outlet for the excitement seeing as I can't tell anyone I know personally).

This nameless friend and I have a similar bond when it comes to this band. In fact it was our love for such bands that probably brought us together in the first place. So it's kind of fitting really <3 Awesome how that worked out..
In fact the festival I was considering was ultimately cancelled. So I'm glad I didn't waste all that R$€¥£R!

So, if we were going we would go together.. Undecided still even after buying my ticket. It all still felt too unreal. A decade of waiting.. Was it finally coming true? We really wouldn't know what to do until closer to the show date. Reality only started kicking in when The Used tweeted they landed in South Africa! That's when the goosebumps started. That's when I'd randomly break into a smile at the thought.. Had to push it all back 'cause it was just the worst timing, really.. Nonetheless this was when our preps began and it became probable that we would attend.

My friend and I thought long and hard about what we would do. I am usually an early bird, or so I prefer so that I am guaranteed a good spot. But I couldn't go with my usual routine on this one. As important as
this band is to me, the fact that it was a holy month had to take precedence. Even if I am probably still gonna burn in hell for this anyway.. We decided to go after mosque had come out. It was the very least we could do. We didn't need to see any of the other bands. The Used were the only reason we were going and they were on last anyway. So that's what we did.

Also, by the time the concert came.. Just 3 days before.. We both started getting sick (probably as a result of all the crazy stress and guilt)!! We kept tabs on each other's health hoping it didn't kill us. This only proved our determination to be there.. We needed to.. We had to.. We just couldn't see it any other way at this point. We had suffered enough. And ultimately we made it through and had an epic night!
One we may not be able to talk about, except between ourselves, but one we will never forget.

The Used, my recap (next)

[P.S. If anyone I know does end up reading this, I know it's bad that I went. I know I don't have to explain it to you or make you understand, your judgements weren't even part of the equation. I would have been self loathing whether I said yes or no. But a part of me literally died with the idea of this opportunity slipping me by. And when the pain didn't fade over time I knew I had to.. Agree or disagree, in the end I did the best with what I could.. And I can't regret that]